Down

Leaving the past behind was meant to be easy. Yet its subtle presence continues to seep any optimistic energy I gather. Did I deserved to die? those harsh words still hauntingly rings in my ears.

The most expensive orange juice

So we had to do an interview (sort of) at Star Vista. I came across this vending machine that makes fresh orange juice for you.

Yes. This machine slices, and squeezes real oranges to give you juice that is even fresher than sunkists'.

The catch. It's a $3.60 purchase. I bought it because of the machine's novelty. Don't think I'll ever buy it again xD

Celebrating birthdays

Celebrated a friends's birthday 2 days ago. It's amazing how we've known each other for a total of 8 years now? :O

Meaning

Always told myself to never compare myself with others. It's a thought that will bring nothing but sadness.

As much as I feel like an empty shell, I shall keep myself strong reminding myself that I am privileged to live in a peaceful part of the world. 

The war rages on. Violence and massacre in the name of of 'god'. If some videos of the massacre was able to make me this disgusted in the past few days, I wonder how it is like for the civilians there. To live under the shadow of death everyday..

Depression

Feeling like the world is collapsing on me again. No matter how hard I try, I fall apart. Does the world hate me. Do I hate the world. I don't know. Can't trust my own thoughts at this stage of paranoia.

BME Camp 2014!!

OG Jerry!!

I've always looked forward to the perk of being a uni student, that is, being able to be part in a very active student community.

I had so much fun during the BME camp, I almost wished I had unlimited energy to enjoy it more as staying awake has never been my strong point. (And late nights are always the times you get to know each other really well.)

I did doubt myself once.. whether or not I should participate in the camp. Afterall, Ramadhan starts in the middle of the camp, and I'm still recovering from my knee injury.

Turns out that I had nothing to worry. Past conditioning makes fasting bearable during physical activities, and there were only a few games where I had to participate passively due to my knee condition. I made a some good friends, a memorable one which came from the unlikely Secret Pals Game.

As you know, tertiary educations have conspired with an unknown agency hired by the government to partner students together, in the hopes of raising our pathetic birthrate.

I kid of course.. the games are mostly in the spirit of fun, and it's mostly a chance for the seniors to tease us while we freshies attempt to get to know each other blindfolded and under secret code names.

The girl I was assigned to turns out to be really friendly. Our conversation flowed less awkwardly than I thought it would. 

Though engaging small talk is nothing new to me, it helps when you are finally able to find something in common. It's like a lucky strike that moves you forward from small talk to a more meaningful conversation.

Lucy and I found a couple of interests we had in common like a love for Japanese food <3 *drools*

The Camp ended in a fun finale where we dressed up our best freshie from our OG for a small mini competition.

And no mercy was given.

Of course no camp is complete without a lot (and I mean A LOT of selfies with one another haha)

Gamelan Fiesta 2014

(This is a later-post because that's just how I roll. )

The Gamelan Fiesta was a full house event. And judging from the cheers, I can bet that half the people in the audience are current Siglap students or ex-students. 

It was fascinating to me how much work the instructors and teachers do to coordinate such a huge event. And to be able to be part of it, I was very grateful.

Because, my relationship with the Djoko group, was at best, considered a relative interest. I was in a gamelan club for a year (which went ok..it was no doubt fun but the club never felt like a place I truly belonged in)

But the Instructors had been very welcoming to me from the start. I wasn't as good as the rest, of course, but no one particularly made it a big issue while I struggled to keep up with the rest.

For the Fiesta, I was offered a violin part, which was kinda awesome because it was something I am familiar with, but also scary because I am not performance worthy on it.

And watching the replays... It sounded kinda bad...lol 

Now that my college education has started, I have to unfortunately stop my gamelan commitments. Training in the eastern end of Singapore doesn't help either when I'll soon move to live on the opposite side haha.

The director has a very interesting personality. I've only ever had one real talk to him about his work, but his motivations...inspires me to believe.